Language difficulties I

-And the many frustrations of desire

The grey-haired gay is shouting

at the bar

in a solo argument

loud and too incoherent to be deciphered.

I feel so sad for his inability

to be desired

that I forget momentarily

the weight of feeling sorry for myself

in a room filled with undesirable men.

As I go out,

I distastefully want to thank him,

but cannot find the right words.

I do not speak Spanish.